a lil UPDATE.

im officially 25weeks in pregnancy today. had my routine check-up at KKH on friday, & BabyBoy is doing fine ^^. didnt get to see him as no scanning was done that day, gotta wait till next appointment in November then i will be able to see him on the screen once again. seriously, time flies really fast. & it seems faster to me this year. is this a sign that im feeling old? its like in a glimpse of eye my girl is now going 3 years old, its like it was only yesterday i had given birth to her & now she's talking to me: "hey mummy, what you're doing?" as a reminiscence, i re-read my blog & the posts i had wrote in the past. what to say, i had a real good laugh on those good times & really had myself reflected on those bad ones. & ive got myself to realise that life is truly unpredictable. you'll never know whats gonna happen in the next moment. just like when i re-read a post i wrote few years back & i said there: "how i wish my house nearby can have a shopping mall like Jurong Point.", & now Nex is just 2 bus-stops away from my house. LOL. just like i had never expected to be pregnant again, but yet im having BabyBoy in my tummy now. in a year time, he will be right beside me & just like my dear Edlysia, giving me laughters & joy. =) somehow or rather, i missed working. especially the days when i was so busy with my previous job. although its been stressful & i always ended up lacking of sleep or no OFF days, but it was really challenging & had fulfilled my daily life. ever since ive left there,i felt a sense of lost. suddenly im not used to be feeling so free again. haha. ive came to realise i really love that job. =X omg, im mad but i cant deny im missing it now. the only doubt i had for not planning to work back that sort of industry is the lost of time accompanying my loved ones which means alot to me too. i feel that having my child accompanied during their childhood time is rather important as i always believe that kid's childhood can affect their future being, & as a mother, i should also do my part for them, spare a thought of what they really needed & not just about earning more bucks for them. so currently, im kinda lost in direction for my career, well hopefully i can get to figure it out what i want to work as after BabyBoy's arrival. having BabyBoy equivalent to having more responsibilities & more expenses needed thus ive gotta work harder & play lesser, but its worth! now i need a house, need a good stable job with enough time for my family, & need savings!! please remind me, not to spend so much & SAVE! im very bad at this, & i gotta really kick off this super bad habits if not its not gonna be good for my kids. unless ive managed to get a job with pay more than 5k. wahaha~~ if not, its better for me to stay away from spending.