there are so much things. i would rather it left unsaid. sometimes im puzzled, i do not know if i am being too demanding or too lenient. i tried my best to hold my temper down each and every time but it just wont solve the MAIN problem i think. i used to kept quiet due to respect eventhough i might felt angry or hurt. i really dont wish to argue back because i knew it does not or may not help much but only more conflicts. will you ever stand in my position to think?? haish. i do felt grateful for some things you help, but these are 2 different things. thats how i see it. i always control whenever its possible but please understand i am still one human being, i do had emotional times when i cannot be calm. i aint no 'venting machine' for you all to vent your anger or frustration on! i think i seriously need a break. a rip out of the cage. a breath of fresh air.