there are so much things. i would rather it left unsaid. sometimes im puzzled, i do not know if i am being too demanding or too lenient. i tried my best to hold my temper down each and every time but it just wont solve the MAIN problem i think. i used to kept quiet due to respect eventhough i might felt angry or hurt. i really dont wish to argue back because i knew it does not or may not help much but only more conflicts. will you ever stand in my position to think?? haish. i do felt grateful for some things you help, but these are 2 different things. thats how i see it. i always control whenever its possible but please understand i am still one human being, i do had emotional times when i cannot be calm. i aint no 'venting machine' for you all to vent your anger or frustration on! i think i seriously need a break. a rip out of the cage. a breath of fresh air.

updates for the past few days:

* tuesday night, met Kevin near my house area.

chill & chat.

new product coming out, perhaps i will post it out soon.

* wednesday, went b.batok to dad shop to work. met Pris for awhile.

chill & chat again.

i was questioned by the coffeeshop uncle when i went to buy cigerette!

he said:

"bu gou shui bu ke yi mai xiang yang le" which means "underage cannot buy cigerette de leh"

i replied: "uncle, wo yao 24 shui liao leh" - "uncle, im going 24yrs old already"

but he still doubting ME!

"zhen de xiao mei, hui bei zua de" - "really girl, will get caught de"

i was like WTF!!!!!!!!

sooo farnie! you can say i do look younger than my age

BUT i dont think i look like im UNDER 18 okays. do i !?!?

* and TODAY, its a Fark Up Day!

well, i had a busy weekend! im too lazy to do storytelling about my recent updates,

so...shall just briefly run over, together with some pictures.

saturday night, 1am - went billiard with Kevin.

damn very shit i lost 6 consistent rounds!

reached home around 7am. [Sunday]

without ZZZZ, bring baby edlysia to dad shop straight at 10am plus.

[drank one bottle of chicken essence wz tang kwey to keep me awake.]

jolly good, i was NOT sleepy at all, only that i felt that my eyes was very tired.

=(

after dad shop, headed to grandma house.

in the end, home sweet home at only 7pm plus.

bathed.. 8pm - lie on bed and rest....till 12am!

wake up cause Pris & Peiling came to my house.

played with baby edlysia, played mahjong, chit-chatting, gossiping.

we slept at 6am plus!

i woke up at 10am... [Monday]

yet again another 4hours of sleep only.

went out at 1pm - we headed Cineleisure. lunch at Suki Sushi - had their buffet set.

salmon salmon salmon!

3pm started to walk and shop!! from Cineleisure. Takashimaya. Wisma. Far East Plaza.

8pm. Peiling went home.

Me and Pris walked back again to Cineleisure.....super duper leg pain!!!!

met Kevin around 10pm - Kbox till 1.30am plus!

play one round of billiard and not to say, yes i lost again.

Pris came my house overnight again.

finally we reach home at about 3am.but in the end we sleep at nearly 5am!

and i woke up at 11am today and till now... no rest. haix.

what a tiring but worthwhile marathon!

thanks people for accompanying me. haha..

its been so long that i had enjoyed that much............... =)

hereby are the pictures with Pris & Peiling:

can you guess which toilet is this located at? [orchard area]
wahaha~

candid!

jay chou! thou he is not my idol but i thinks he's cool~

the Mont Blanc boutique looks so real, isnt it? haha

i know you read my blog

you had been using different names to tag here, and i had been very polite.

i did not expose you but yet you kept doing it again and again.

STOP doing all these kind of kids acts!

and STOP pestering Pris!

mind you. you dont understand English?

for you! ignorant brainless idiot!

these few days had been torturing. couldnt have a good sleep during the nights.

baby edlysia is bossing me now! =(

nowadays she tends to get easily frustrated, often been moving around during her sleep.

as she sleeps with me on my single bed, her kicks and yells can easily wake me.

she been sweating very easily recently, so i had to turn on the air-con just for her in order to make her fall into sleep! duh~~ if not she will kept crying thus kept sweating even much more!

but but but..

she is still my lil precious gem. she's getting cuter!

her smiles, her coos, her lil mumbles, her innocent looks

just soooooo irresistable!

anyway, my mood now is down & tired. somehow, life seems so sucky for this moment.

why do all bad things always come together?

haix.

how true is it? hmmm.. *secret.

lol.

anyway no harm just had a fun out of it, enjoy.!

hopefully this video can be uploaded successfully.

its taken during CNY. baby edlysia is rocking herself in her rocker.

hereby are some latest updates of baby edlysia:

* she is now able to twist and turn herself - hardly able to put her in her rocker or the sarong unattended anymore. cause she will turn herself from front to back! once i placed her in the sarong to sleep. she woke and she twist and turn till her back facing up! and her face facing the floor! luckily, nowadays sarong are with holes, so its still breathable. but somehow i felt so dangerous now.

*she now knows how to make more cooing noises like - 'aw' 'hmm' 'ar' 'eek'.

i tried teaching the alphabet 'A' to her, haha, sometimes she can response back the 'A' but usually she can only make the sound of 'L'.

really LMAO.

when i made some sounds that she couldnt pronounce, she will just open her mouth.

*she is still drinking 120ml every 3hours interval. and do one BIG poo everyday.

*her head are more firm now, and she can control it freely without much support.

*she seems to recognise people especially my family members and of cause - ME.

*she knows how to 'sa jiao' now. really buay ta han. if possible, i will upload the video of this. hee~

damn lots of people comment her v fat especially her thighs. argh!! - baby should be chubby okay! LOL.

alright.

was thinking of which diapers are good? currently baby edlysia had no problems with diapers. she seems to love them all. and it seems like i am the one 'finding' the faults.

haha. well, at first i had been using Pampers. as Pampers costs rather expensive especially [the one for the newborn], i also bought Mamy Poko and PetPet to try. but still finds Pampers better. =X cause Mamy Poko diapers seems like kinda 'low cut'.

when baby edlysia do poos, her poos will leak out to her back. -.-

firstly due to she is really damn active and likes to move alot, plus her quantity of her poo is really damn much! whereas for PetPet, not bad but it seems kinda humid. get rashes easily.

my buddy told me FiFi is not bad - can try.

& as for myself.

my hair is in a complete mess. but i dont plan to cut or trim it currently.

cause i was told that mothers get to drop her hair 3months after giving birth!

isit true???

if its so, i am preparing for it.

Shall blog about horoscopes & astrology, somehow i do finds it rather interesting.

hopefully i can get to know more about it.

as i was online reading some source, i realised i am born on a Cusp of Gemini & Cancer.

LOL.

get to read about this and i find it quite true.

so shall share it here. =)

Gemini/Cancer
June 19 to June 23

Gemini is the third sign of the zodiac. Geminis examine the world through intellect. Cancer is the fourth sign of the zodiac. Cancers are emotional and traditional. Those born on the Gemini/Cancer cusp display great imagination and tend to be very expressive. They are interested in heredity and ancestors, and this is reflected in their desire to care for relatives and propagate the family line. They love to learn, and their lives are generally centered around the home. The astrological symbol of Gemini is the Twins. Like twins, Geminis often have a dual nature and are skilled at seeing both sides of a problem. The astrological symbol of Cancer is the Crab. Like the Crab, Cancerians go through life with a strong shell around them that is not easily broken. Gemini/Cancers are the first to express emotion in any given situation -- the first to laugh and the first to tears. Gemini/Cancers tend to have many different interests that they study in great detail. Gemini exemplifies the mutable quality assigned to it by being adaptable and able to tackle multiple tasks simultaneously. Cancer exemplifies the cardinal quality assigned to it by being strong-willed, persistent and initiating. Gemini is ruled by the planet Mercury. In ancient Roman mythology, Mercury (and his Greek equivalent, Hermes) was the messenger god. He was associated with travel and transportation. He was a communicator, quick-witted and inventive. Cancer is ruled by the Moon. In ancient times, the Moon, which represents fertility and instinct, was perceived as the Great Mother, responsible for nurturing all life. The Moon controls the tides and all water on Earth, and it has a strong effect on human emotions. Gemini/Cancers tend to be more sensitive to the movement of the Moon, their moods changing with the Moon's passage. Their facility in adapting to new challenges may seem like opportunism, but it is really just a highly intuitive curiosity that leads them to the right people at the right time. Generally domestic and peaceful, Gemini/Cancers often have many friends and acquaintances, and they won't sit still when loved ones are threatened. The element associated with Gemini is Air. The element associated with Cancer is Water. Gemini/Cancers are very intuitive, and their broad-minded outlook and capacity for abstract reasoning enables them to make strong contributions to projects. Emotion is a key part of their lives and is checked and balanced with logic and objectivity. Their awareness and intellectual approach to life is refreshing, and their emotional honesty is something to be admired. Gemini/Cancers have close family ties with their brothers and sisters. They often remain youthful and lighthearted their whole lives. These people have a strong association with food and a willingness to always try something new; they often make excellent cooks. Their many interests make them entertaining and stimulating conversationalists who really love people. In their leisure time, Gemini/Cancers enjoy pairing up with a partner for recreation. They often enjoy team sports because of the family feeling a team often provides. Gemini/Cancers are more likely to be ambidextrous than other signs. Physical exercise and artistic endeavors, written or on canvas, allow them to channel their swirling emotions into productive output. Their love for conversation and food ensures that leisurely dinners with friends are highly enjoyable for them, and their inquisitive and literary orientation means they enjoy mentally challenging pursuits as well. In love relationships, Gemini/Cancers are caring, flirtatious, playful and romantic. The great strength of the Gemini/Cancer-born is in their blending of intellectual and conversational skills. They have the ability to understand the difficulties their loved ones must work through. Their affectionate nature makes them among the most caring characters of the zodiac.

=X

went out to celebrate Eileen's 24th birthday at her house instead. met her 9mths daughter - Janelle finally..

wow she's so adorable! and so glad that she got her mum's eyes.

which means BIG!

when snapping pics, Janelle wants to touch her god-sis, Baby Edlysia.

supposingly we are meeting at 7pm. but i was way too tired.

i took a rest from 5pm till 6pm!

got to feed Baby Edlysia and get her clean up.

so by the time i am done is already 8pm. =(

then waited for Seng to fetch Mq then me as he drives.

they reached my house at 9pm!

ZZZZZ

before heading over Eileen's house,

we went over to Emicakes which is somewhere near my house

to get an Oreomisu cake for the birthday girl.

so in the end we reach her house at 9pm plus.

we played some gambling first. and shit im having ultimate bad luck!

played in-between. got a 2 and a Q but i can get 2! which means double!!

and it happened 3-4times that i had to pay DOUBLE!!!

this is called SUAY.

waahaha...

lost SGD 20plus in the end.

lastly, we blowed her birthday cake at 11pm plus.

here's the mother & daughter.

& soon later, Seng drive us home.
actually i felt like going out. yes - a night-out but in the end, didnt.
LOL.
anyway, shall just end with my baby edlysia. ^^
& her lovely smile. sweeeettt~

had a buddies gathering today with baby edlysia.

we know each other since secondary one.

wah~~ going 11yrs of friendship!

time passes really seems so fast, we're getting old. :(

its about a million years ago since 4 of us get to meet out together!

lol. not kidding. its really damn farking long. i think can count by years.

eileen came my house around 4pm plus to help me out first.

& then we cabbed down to Orchard Paragon to meet Mq and Seng.

the 2 guys was supposed to be waiting at the taxi stand for us

in order to help me with the pram.

but when we reached, they are still at dont-know where buying stuffs.

zzzzzzzzzzz.

luckily the cab driver was very helpful (:

we were all craving for food as though we were about to die out of hunger.

headed down to the basement to find a place to have our dinner.

went Fish & Co. but there are having some kind of Valentines Sets.

its really WTF lorx!

what worse is they only provide that and NO OTHER CHOICES!!!

its really abit shit cause everything is FIXED.

we only can choose from the choices they gave.

and you cant even add one additional drinks or whatever..

its like even you went in you just want get one drink also cant. =.=

SGD 59.90++ for 2.

i think its super NOT WORTH cause for the EXACTLY same items,

you can eat at SGD 49.90++ for 2 at their other outlets.

& the reason, because its at Paragon so SGD10 more.

my mind was thinking forking out that EXTRA some of money

for their set its totally a waste.

somemore the atmosphere totally sucks lorx.

i believe i can find better ones.

actually the worse thing was that the waitress didnt even inform us earlier.

its was after we are all settled down, the barangs barangs & pram put down & placed,

then they tell us that. we were like huh? wad? wa kaoz.

aha.. but in the end, we also never eat at there larhs.

we went to ....

yes, Sushi Tei instead.

[hmm Sushi Tei is much better than Sakae Sushi, i mean the food more delicious. Pris next time we go Sushi Tei instead larhs. haha. wanted to try the Zuwai Crab but dont have. :( ]

order one whole table of food and in the end its only SGD85++ for 4

so much worth.. :D

after dinner, shopped around at Paragon.

Seng wants to find a bag as a pressie for his GF.

so we went shop by shop to search.

after that headed Takashimaya to search again.

relax, im not really burnt. i just did something that hurts myself yet again.

feeling terrible. this time round, i think i am really over-reacted.

=(

anyway, i admit i had not be very calm before i made that decision.

and after a day of 'recalling & thinking', i realised i do had faults too,

although PL told me; there is nothing right or wrong in it.

hmm...whatever bah. all i can say its my mind is abit messy now.

i really dont like this kind of feelings!

precisely, im someone who likes to settle things fast! i dont really like to drag things.

which somehow in some situations, it is not a very good way to be.

thus making me kinda a lil too demanding. haix.

i do reflects myself.

so this time round, i think i really had been a lil overboard & unreasonable.

btw, baby edlysia had been sleeping longer during the nights. so i can get more sleep!

yeah~ its sucha wonderful thing to have good rest. ^,^

and for those who want to know how to post a locked post,

you can go to this webby;

pardon me, i dont really know how to teach cause i am also not very familiar with it.

still also consider a newbie!

i got to know it from Mummy Jenny's blog. & then got into the webby to learn more.

so you guys can go check it out there too. =)

i hate myself for doing this shit

but ive made my choice.

goodbye, take care.

hey people.

not blogging much today cause

im currently combating with illness.

flu attacks!!!!

thanks people for your concern, im emotional well now.

but physically still not.

is there something amiss in me.?

these days, occasionally, i will have the tendency to cry for no reason.

kinda ridiculous but seriously, i really dont know why.

cant think of any reasons & this is NOT the first time i am like this.

i oftens have situation that my 'crying' kind of feelings strikes me suddenly.

thou i may not really cry it out, but the feelings is there.

very uncomfortable.

it happens not because of anything happen or whatever.

im like completely lost control of myself.

hmm... well, i also dont know how to explain it out in words.

tired yet couldnt sleep. i can feel that my body is so much weaker than before.

im so pathetic. so young only, yet almost every part of my body is aching already.

i simply had the image of an old woman okays. the only different is that my looks are young.

duh!

movement become slow, my mind couldnt think as fast as last time

and is getting more and more forgetful.

what to do?

so so so much different that i cant even recognise myself anymore.

am i in the right body???

i find it so unreal.

its just so ......................................

i have just insert the nuffnang ads to earn some extra income. lols. although its not much but one click of yours on the ads, i can earn 10cents! haha. in fact i have joined nuffnang months ago but i didnt implement it. until yesterday, out of no reason, i had the urge to try it. hee. hopefully i can get some good ads. ^,^

so people, do support support okays!

[ i know nuffnang ads are very common seen in almost every blog, but if possible, just give it a click bah. i will be very thankful. =) ]

and if you are very free, can also help me do the polls. that is just for fun - cause that had no earnings.

saw the news about the China PM Wen Jiabao been hurled by a protester with a sport shoe during his speech in Britian. was wondering if it had become a trend now for throwing shoe at people when doing speech after George Bush's similar encounter? although i had no ideas about politics stuff but i was quite amazed that he got protester as PM Wen had left quite a good impression in me especially during the China Sichuan's earthquakes in May last year.

he seems beneficent to me. and he had those benevolent smile. sometimes i do wish i had a grandfather like him. crazy ar. =X. seeing the economic crisis, the wars and the disasters. the world is changing and seems deteriorating. now many countries are having uncommon weathers, economy facing a very bad downfall. i start to feel that im just a small peanut who cant even do anything to help. =( but hopefully, everything can go better!!! the best is world peace and war-free. =)

alright, its been 2 months since i gave birth. BUT BUT BUT, im still having a tummy! awww~ the fats are still allocated there and also on my thighs. as for my weight, well im quite satisfied. =] weighing 45kg now. only 1kg less within a month but i thinks its good enough. alot of people complimented me that i look better in my size now compared to the past. hmm.. i do agrees. wahaha. only that my skin dont look very nice anymore. *sob sob. my rashes scars are still all over my body. i knew this one gotta takes really a long time in order to get back to beautiful. all i can do is to bear with it. argh ugly ugly. i was told that if i want to shave off those fats on the tummy area, i can try binding it. it will tighten and so my tummy wont look so loose. 0.o anyone tried before? isit really effective?

do give me some comments yeah~

and as for baby edlysia. she is now able to move her head freely. she can manage to lift her head herself without any support and look around although not for long. she is drinking 120ml of milk, exactly every 3hours interval. she do BIG poos daily once in the morning only. [what a good habit] haha so envy, cause her mum [me] had constipation. =.=' one amazing thing she did was when she sit on the rocker, she can use her legs to kick and rock herself! so cute. i had it video-ed down but couldnt upload it! disappointing right?. maybe the files too big or what, every time i tried uploading it, it will show error. haix. she dont like lying flat on her tummy and loves to sleep side ways or hands and legs wide open - very unsightly, so i rather she sleeps sideways. =) she is now begining to suck her fist! she had been trying to put her thumb into her mouth to suck but only once or twice succeeded. lol. most of the time, she can only lick on her fist. got once she even poke her thumb into her nose and then put it into her mouth! haha.. so funny okays. =X but... she is still very naughty. still yells out superbly loud for milk or hug. she dont like to be alone. and she likes to act pitiful. LOL. yes, act! when she wants attention, she will howl. and flip her mouth like that =( and when you go and comfort, 'sayang' her. she will smile secretively. 'um chio'. she always like to trick my mum more. cause she knows i dont always bother if she do that but my mum will. heihei~. and i found out that my girl snores! hmm.. when baby snores, isit normal? i thinks so. haha.

baby edlysia had a long day-out yesterday. early morning, brought baby edlysia to bukit batok - my dad shop. cause those uncles and aunties over there were so eager to see her. so since dad opens shop half-day during Sundays, mum asked me to bring her over together with them. supposed to close at 3pm but stay there till around 4pm plus, nearly 5pm! due to the consistent customers.

we then headed to AMK. mummy's friend's house. cause they also want to see baby edlysia.

i put baby edlysia there and went AMK Hub to meet my buddy - eileen. we had arranged to meet that day, after for so long we didnt get to meet up. finally! im starving so we had our dinner at Ichiban Sushi before shopping. walk around AMK Hub, although i dont really like there, but no choice - no where else to go as i still need to rush back for baby edlysia and she is at AMK. ever since i gave birth, our topics is all about our girls! yes, she had a 8months daughter! both our girl is born on the same year. so nice. =) time seems to pass so fast, we didnt even managed to shop much, mum called and i had to rush back to look after baby edlysia. eileen accompany over. well, she left at 9plus. and i waited till 10plus for my dad to fetch us back home.

but in the end, slept at 4am.

=(

woke up late today. was so giddy & sleepy.

was wondering whats wrong with me today?

was suspecting if i am getting sick?

the answer came.

wahahaha.

its my menses. arrived today.

p.s: im so sad cause baby edlysia drop her gold bracelet yesterday and its LOST! when searching any possible locations but yet still couldnt find it. argghhh~~its not just a bracelet, its a very memorable one cause that bracelet was mine. LOL. i wore it when i was a baby. a 23years old bracelet, now its gone.

please clear away your poo after you shit.

if you want to publicise, i can recommend you the media.

im really x 1000000000 pissed to have you mumbling right here.

you are simply an eye-sore!