argh... im feeling bad. i went to posb bank at heartland mall to change my address alone yesterday, left baby edlysia at home and asked my brothers to look after her for awhile. i cabbed down instead of taking bus to save time although heartland mall is quite near my house. seriously, i really thinks that i should refrain myself to go out alone as i cannot resist the temptation in me on spending. haix. yes, i went out for an hour, but i spent hundreds. i felt so bad now, and truly regretted for my doings. damn shit me!!!!!! why am i always like this?!?! in fact its nothing wrong doing purchasing as everyone does that, but my situation is not just that normal. as firstly, my finance are very low and my cashflow are tight cause i havent got back to work and secondly, im aware of it! i clearly knows that i am not in the state to be sucha spender, but i did. =( and what worse is that the money was what i had been saving for the past few weeks and yet i can eventually spent it in just an hour! im really hopeless.. i really need to learn to control.. really!!!!! there are gamble-addicts/ alcoholic etc. i thinks im an addict of spending but not shopaholic. not kidding, somehow i, myself feels that the way im spending is superbly unhealthy. those things i spent on may not be because i need or fond of those things, i can spent because i just want to spent, there are even times that i will feel like spending but cant think of anything to buy! this could happens even if im broke okay. thats how utterly crazy i am. and that also explains why i can have no savings at the age of 23! how much i earn, how much i spend. i had been trying to control myself, but the most i can stop myself for spending recklessly was like for 2months? yes, i can save up for months but yet in the end spent the money in days! wtf.. its like somehow as thou i just want to get rid of those money i had.

sounds like im completely insane right?

omg....can anyone diagnose me?