i had decided, 2 december will be the day. Dr Tseng actually had arranged another so-called appointment on the 2 dec, he was planning my admission on that day. SO, if no labour pain before the 2nd, then i shall admit myself that day. had myself thinking about labour one whole yesterday, haha. my mind keep flashing the words 'kinda slightly big baby you had for the size of yours' that Dr Tseng said to me, kinda afraid that, what if, just what if, my baby ger is too big for me to push her out?? LOL. im imaginative! but i just couldnt help having all these kind of images floating inside my mind! =X haha. my imaginary labour, how the doctor gonna sew me? will i be able to take it physically and mentally???? .... =.=' yah, sounds like im getting kinda too nervous. NOT GD. must STOP thinking but i just cant. =( . i had been telling myself to stay relax. just enjoy my last few days of pregnancy, but as the days get that NEAR for now, i swear i just cant lie to myself that im not abit NERVOUS. especially for now, in which i clearly knows, it will just be within these few days that soon i will be experiencing the moments of becoming a MOTHER! how to not being nervous?? =/. hee~ im not experiencing any contraction pains yet, but i had been experiencing POKING pains in my lower part of my tummy and right inside my vaginal! it seems to me maybe its due to the opening of my cervix that causes those poking sharp pain. and maybe that explains why i can be 3cm dilated. 0.0. thou i do feel contractions in my tummy oftens, but is totally not at all pain.

=( . from the graph of my CTG, the contraction can up to 100plus, it was that tight! but no pain. sianxxxxxx... hmmm how is the REAL contraction pains like???